Justine 淑女的眼泪 Chapter 30

"Yes.", ,"Ah, I swear to you in the name of all I hold most holy, in the name of the God Who makes me to breathe and Whom only I adore... I vow ¹ to you I will either die in the undertaking ² or destroy these infamies ³... will you promise me the same?", ,"Do not doubt it," Omphale replied, "but be certain of these promises' futility ⁴; others more embittered ⁵ than you, stauncher, no less resolute ⁶ and not so scrupulous ⁷, in a word, friends who would have shed their last drop of blood for us, have not kept identical vows ⁸; and so, dear Therese, and so allow my cruel experience to consider ours equally vain and to count upon them no more.", , ,"No," answered Omphale, "Antonin has been here ten years, Clement ¹¹ eighteen, Jerome thirty, Severino twenty-five. The superior was born in Italy, he is closely allied ¹² to the Pope with whom he is in intimate contact; only since his arrival have the so-called miracles of the Virgin ¹³ assured the monastery ¹⁴'s reputation and prevented scandalmongers from observing too closely what takes place here; but when he came the house was already furnished as presently you see it to be; it has subsisted ¹⁶ in the same style and upon this footing for above a century, and all the superiors who have governed it have perpetuated ¹⁷ a system which so amicably ¹⁸ smiles upon their pleasures. Severino, the most libertine ¹⁹ man of our times, has only installed himself here in order to lead a life consonant ²⁰ with his tastes. He intends to maintain this abbey's secret privileges as long as he possibly can. We belong to the diocese of Auxerre, but whether or not the bishop ²¹ is informed, we never see him, never does he set foot in the monastery: generally speaking, very few outsiders come here except toward the time of the festival which is that of Notre Dame ²² d'Aout; according to the monks, ten persons do not arrive at this house over the period of a twelvemonth; however, it is very likely that when strangers do present themselves, the superior takes care to receive them with hospitality; by appearances of religion and austerity he imposes upon them, they go away content, the monastery is eulogized, and thus these villains ²⁴' impunity ²⁵ is established upon the people's good faith and the credulity of the devout ²⁶.", ,Omphale had scarcely concluded her instruction when nine o'clock tolled ²⁷; the superintendent ²⁸ called us to come quickly, and the Officer of the Day did indeed enter. 'Twas Antonin; according to custom, we drew ourselves up in a line. He cast a rapid glance upon the group, counted us, and sat down; then, one by one, we went forward and lifted our skirts, on the one side as high as the navel, on the other up to the middle of the back. Antonin greeted the homage ²⁹ with the blase ³⁰ unconcern of satiety ³¹; then, clapping an eye upon me, he asked how I liked this newest of my adventures. Getting no response but tears, "She'll manage," he said with a laugh; "in all of France there's not a single house where girls are finished as nicely as they are in this." From the superintendent's hands he took the list of girls who had misbehaved, then, addressing himself to me again, he caused me to shudder ³³; each gesture, each movement which seemed to oblige me to submit myself to these libertines ³⁴ was for me as a sentence of death. Antonin commanded me to sit on the edge of a bed and when I was in this posture ³⁵ he bade the superintendent uncover my breast and raise my skirt to above my waist; he himself spread my legs as far apart as possible, he seats himself before this prospect ³⁶, one of my companions comes and takes up the same pose on top of me in such a way that it is the altar of generation instead of my visage which is offered to Antonin; with these charms raised to the level of his mouth he readies himself for pleasure. A third girl, kneeling before him, begins to excite him with her hands, and a fourth, completely naked, with her fingers indicates where he must strike my body. Gradually, this girl begins to arouse me and what she does to me Antonin does as well, with both his hands, to two other girls on his left and right. One cannot imagine the language, the obscene speeches by which that debauchee stimulates ³⁸ himself; at last he is in the state he desires, he is led to me, but everyone follows him, moves with him, endeavors to inflame ³⁹ him yet further while he takes his pleasure; his naked hind ⁴⁰ parts are exposed, Omphale takes possession of them and neglects nothing in order to irritate him: rubbings, kisses, pollutions, she employs them all; completely afire, Antonin leaps toward me.... "I wish to stuff her this time," he says, beside himself.... These moral deviations ⁴¹ determine the physical. Antonin, who has the habit of uttering terrible cries during the final instants of drunkenness, emits dreadful ones; everyone surrounds, everyone serves him, everyone labors ⁴³ to enrich his ecstasy ⁴⁴, and the libertine attains ⁴⁵ it in the midst of the most bizarre episodes of luxury and depravation.#p#分页标题#e#, ,I am under a vow to drink no wine.我已立誓戒酒 。,He gave her an undertaking that he would pay the money back with in a year.他向她做了一年内还钱的保证
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