Of Human Bondage 人性的枷锁 Chapter 51

Two months passed., ,It seemed to Philip, brooding over these matters, that in the true painters, writers, musicians, there was a power which drove them to such complete absorption in their work as to make it inevitable ² for them to subordinate life to art. Succumbing ³ to an influence they never realised, they were merely dupes of the instinct that possessed ⁴ them, and life slipped through their fingers unlived. But he had a feeling that life was to be lived rather than portrayed ⁵, and he wanted to search out the various experiences of it and wring ⁶ from each moment all the emotion that it offered. He made up his mind at length to take a certain step and abide ⁷ by the result, and, having made up his mind, he determined ⁸ to take the step at once. Luckily enough the next morning was one of Foinet's days, and he resolved to ask him point-blank whether it was worth his while to go on with the study of art. He had never forgotten the master's brutal ⁹ advice to Fanny Price. It had been sound. Philip could never get Fanny entirely ¹⁰ out of his head. The studio seemed strange without her, and now and then the gesture of one of the women working there or the tone of a voice would give him a sudden start, reminding him of her: her presence was more noticuble?? now she was dead than it had ever been during her life; and he often dreamed of her at night, waking with a cry of terror. it was horrible to think of all the suffering she must have endured., ,Philip knew that on the days Foinet came to the studio he lunched at a little restaurant in the Rue ¹ d'Odessa, and he hurried his own meal so that he could go and wait outside till the painter came out. Philip walked up and down the crowded street and at last saw Monsieur Foinet walking, with bent ¹¹ head, towards him; Philip was very nervous, but he forced himself to go up to him., , ,Foinet gave him a rapid glance, recognised him, but did not smile a greeting., ,'Speak,' he said., ,You're going to rue this the longest day that you live.你要终身悔恨不尽呢。,Mary was wearing her inevitable large hat.玛丽戴着她总是戴的那顶大帽子 。